I really just want to hear what people experience and feel and think... especially if you are not totally convinced or if your faith falters or if, like me, you feel silly trying to have a relationship with someone who's not around and who (please don't judge me for thinking this, it is something I really think and wonder about) is dead...  How do you do it?

I need to establish a daily prayer practice.  I find that I don't actually pray when I think I am praying... I think and reflect and ponder and then fight off plain and repetative thoughts...

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