jensamember
church vs God
Posted on: 10/12/2009 17:53
Ok, I have never blogged...but lately I've just had many things going through my mind, just like many people I suppose...I'm not sure who reads these, if it's for the reader, for the writer or both...but here goes...
I love the Lord, I am saved in the way that I have accepted Jesus into my heart...lately though, I have no desire to attend church...I don't go to a church because it's a particular denomination, I go where I believe I can be a blessing and be blessed...with many life changes lately, I was limited to where I could go...no car, walk to church...when my husband left, I enjoyed the friendships of the four or five consisant people who attended everything this church offered...when my ex wanted to work things out, he wanted to come to church with me...this was very awkward and I wanted to see if he would go if I didn't...he did for a bit..anyway, I have no interest in church anymore...I know I was angry at the way things turned out...but I know my ex has a free will...my frustration was that I believed I did everything I suppose to do...long story short...I've attended alot of churches for various reasons and at different times in my life...I need a church that teaches signifigance (?) I appreciate the 'teaching' of the OT and I am not interested in being entertained...I have encountered many Christians who have been feeling like they have to 'put on' church...that we can't be who we are...and when we attend a church it's a comparison of living up to that denominations rules...which suck!
Ok...thats all for now...is there a spellcheck somewhere for this??? Oi!!!
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Holyroller
Posted on: 10/13/2009 18:42
Hay, that's great for a first time blogger. Congratulations! You did well. Sounds like you are looking for a church, or a way outside the traditional institution, to express your faith, or put your faith into action.
I felt much the same way, until, that is, I got involved in projects to help the poor, the homeless, the powerless, the lost the lonely etc... even after 20 years as a minister, there are times, that administrative work of the profession takes one away from the real hands on work. Then I have to pul myself back to the hands on work, to remind me why I am here, and what I am doing.
As you said so correctly, faith and religion is more than entertainment.
Hang in there.
Signed, Holyroller
jensamember
Posted on: 10/13/2009 21:21
Thank you Holyroller for one, reading my blog! Yeah! And secondly and most important, your encouragement!
ElijahXYZ
Posted on: 10/15/2009 05:36
There are moments in our lives that we question and be confused about our faith and beliefs. That is natural and that is good. Because it shows that you have faith and you do have something to believe in. That is evidence that you value your innermost self. It doesn’t matter really when and where you go to church or what religion you have. What do matter is that you believe in something higher than you or something spiritually. That is one part of being a human. You have faith. And later, there will come a moment in your life that you will find yourself, your purpose and your innermost reality. You just have to live according to what is right and good. And from there you will have your peace and contentment. Well, so much for that. This is an advance Halloween sharing. And I have my own Halloween spending to do.
jensamember
Posted on: 10/15/2009 06:30
Hello ElijahXYZ, may I ask you a question in response? Part of the struggle has been the idea of what is 'good and right'...I had always used the Word as a guideline which I believe as a Christian we should...however, part of the wondering has been...if the 'good and right' is not hurting anyone or illegal does it matter if it doesn't line up with the Word? I know the Lord has given us free will...I guess it comes down to being accountable, at the end of it all, we have to stand before God...right?