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A Secret Hidden in the Eucharist

 

In the United Church, we have only two official sacraments -- baptism and communion. And baptism is understood as happening only once in a lifetime. This leaves communion as our only regular sacramental practice. I agree with the objection that many will quickly raise, that "all of life" can become sacramental. But still, I wonder if that way of thinking is sometimes just a copout that deflects attention from our dissatisfactions with our experience of the sacrament of communion. What can/should you and I really be 'getting' out of a celebration of communion?  For sure, there are many possible gains. In this sermon, though, I will focus on only one.

I invite you to go back in time with me for a moment, to ancient Jerusalem, to the scene of the Last Supper, the final meal between Jesus and his disciples, in the privacy and safety of the upper room. And what I'd like us to focus in on is the disciples' state of mind. Try to imagine it together with me:
 
For the first time in their lives, they have actually experienced the Real Presence of the Living God. The Divine, the Supernatural Source of all life… had become truly present and real, even natural to them, within the concrete details of their own lives.
 
And this Real Presence of God had been healing them, nourishing them and giving them new life, helping them truly GROW spiritually, and emotionally, and socially into happier, freer, simpler human beings.
 
And they know that this newfound ability to feel the Real Presence of God in their lives and all of these undeniable changes... are tied to their relationship with Jesus. They’re very clear about that. They know that before they were with Jesus, everything had been far from divine. And they know that now, if they are away from Jesus, even briefly, life is not the same. Their spiritual vitality, their awareness of the Divine just seems to fizzle out... until they're back in his presence again. So they know Jesus is key.
 
And they know all of these things experientially: They're experiential facts in their lives.
 
But now.... these wonderful facts are beginning to be a source of suffering in their minds… because Jesus is now making it crystal clear to them that his life on this earth is almost over. He will, in fact, be crucified the following day. And so it all becomes for them a terrible predicament: they've been transformed by experiencing the Divine Presence in their lives; but experiencing this Transforming Presence depends on their being close to Jesus; and Jesus is going to die.
 
It's a terrible predicament, because, you see, they had always related to Jesus, kind of like he was The Goose That Laid The Golden Eggs. You remember that old fable, which warned people that, “If you’re fortunate enough to find a goose that lays golden eggs – whatever you do, don’t lose her! Don’t let anything bad happen to her! …‘cause that’s no ordinary goose! You won’t find one like that again any time soon...” The disciples knew all too well that they were just run-of-the-mill, just “ordinary geese”. Not the kind of rare bird that Jesus was! No way! No golden eggs for them…just plain old goose eggs.
 
After all, they were just ordinary human beings. They didn’t have a clue how to experience the Real Transforming Presence of God in their lives. All they knew was that: when Jesus was around, it happenedHow it happened… they had no insight into that whatsoever. So, you can imagine their state of mind: “If we lose him, we’re never going to be able to experience that Divine Presence on our own…. Without him, it’s game over… it’s back to the painful drudgery of life without a vibrant, transforming sense of the Sacred.” They feared that the strong spiritual pulse they had come to know was going to just fade away.
 
Now, the disciples were not foolish, by any means. But they lacked a particular spiritual insight, one that they needed very badly, one that Jesus had attempted to transmit to them time and time again, but they just couldn't ‘get’ it.
 
Their great need for this spiritual insight – now more than ever – is precisely what Jesus is responding to when he walks in to the upper room and sits down at the table. He sees the bread, how beautiful its form is, how wonderful its fragrance. It’s so perfect looking that it seems almost a pity that it has to be broken... and soon after that disappear...
 
But...... if the bread is not broken, if he were to protect the bread from ever being broken, it would not be real food. It is only in the breaking that its power to nourish is released and made accessible to us all, as a real resource for living.
 
I imagine that this is part of what was rolling around in Jesus' mind when he instituted the Lord's Supper, the Eucharist... He was placing a profound teaching within this simple ritual to help the disciples develop (over time) this spiritual insight that they needed so badly.
 
Somehow the physical act of breaking the bread is importantly related to this spiritual insight that he is transmitting. I really wonder how Jesus might have responded, if some exasperated disciple at the Last Supper had raised his or her hand and asked – “What is it that you're trying to get across to us by breaking the bread in this way and saying these unusual things? Can you just walk us through it, maybe say it a little differently, because I'm just not getting it...?”
 
So I thought that for our Communion meditation this morning I would do that exercise in spiritual imagination – and share with you how I imagine Jesus might have responded if someone had sincerely asked him that kind of question:
 
I'm glad that you asked why I'm breaking the bread in this way and saying these unusual things. You know that you have experienced real spiritual nourishment as a result of being with me. You know that you've experienced the Real Presence of God in your bodies and minds and relationships. But how do you imagine that happened?
 
It's that 'how' that I'm trying to show you. How you were able to have that spiritually nourishing experience was through a very special kind of brokenness: I was so taken by the Father’s love for me and the Father’s love for you… that the walls around my heart began breaking down. Piece by piece... the Father’s love just kept bringing all of the walls down… until I was free... completely free... nothing was left but a pure heart of flesh, the heart of the New Covenant... And through that beautiful living heart the Father’s love began to flow – to me, to each of you, to the sparrows, to the lilies of the field.
 
And each of you could feel it. Even though your hearts still had very thick walls around them – walls of fear and greed and stubbornness and envy – the Father’s love flowing from me was so powerful that it softened up your walls and penetrated them, so you couldn’t help but feel God's Presence in every detail of your lives. But when we were apart... those walls around your hearts hardened up again and became just as impenetrable as ever…
 
You see, when you were around me, you could benefit from my brokenness… and feel the Real Presence of the Loving Father that is flowing from an un-barricaded heart… But you still haven'’t cultivated enough of this brokenness of your own to perceive the Father's nearness to you. And that’s why you find yourselves in the predicament that you're in now – where unless you stay physically close to me all the time, you fall 'out of the loop', you can’t perceive the Real Presence of the Loving Father in your lives any longer. So naturally you're afraid that tomorrow -- once I'm gone – your lives will go back to the way they were before. You're afraid that you'll lose this transforming awareness of the Divine presence that you experience when you're with me.
 
So do you see what your real need is? You need to become like me... to become so taken by the power of God's love for you that those stony walls around your heart will start to crumble and reveal the secret they've been hiding for so long – a tender and pure heart, the heart of the New Covenant, the heart that has no need to break the Law. You already have it inside of you! I promise you that all of this will happen for you, just as it did for me....because the Father longs (the Father is eternally motivated ) to make each of your hearts into his permanent home.
 
You only need to let the Father's love begin breaking through the hard crust of the bread. And everything that you experienced with me, you will experience when I’m no longer here. In fact, you’re going to be able to experience it even more profoundly after I’m gone, because then, instead of only relying on my brokenness, you’ll be cultivating your own... exactly as I did.... following in my footsteps, by turning and opening and surrendering to the amazing power of God’s love which brings down the walls that shield our hearts.
 
Once the Father's love convinces you to let your bread be broken… to let the walls around your heart come down... you'll realize that you are not losing me at all. It will be like I’m right here with you, in you, even closer than when I was physically present, so close that you'll feel that my flesh is your flesh, and my blood is your blood, my heart is your heart, my life is your life. And in time you'll see that's true.
 
I know this is hard to understand. It's because it goes so hard against the grain of what the world teaches us. But don't panic if you still don't fully understand it. In the end you'll see that it's actually very simple. Everything that I've ever said to you, everything that I've ever done, has been transmitting this same message. So just keep re-telling one another the stories that I've told you. Keep breaking the bread and drinking the wine together. And when you do it, be mindful of me and my love for you, and my desire for your hearts to be as free as mine, and for us to enjoy the Father’s love together, forever and ever. Amen.
 
[For more reflection on these themes, see: Psalm 51:17; Ezekiel 36:26-27; Mark 14:17-26; Luke 24:30; John 6:22-63; John 14:23; John 15:9,15-18; John 20:19-23; Romans 12:1-2; 1Cor 11:23-26; 2Cor 3:3; Philippians 2:5-8]

 

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Hi rishi:

 

Some years ago I wrote a poem about getting IT. In it I tried to say in a few lines what you said in your blog. I quoted it here on the cafe before, but you are relatively new, and may not have read it.

 

Getting IT

 

IT is we; we are IT.

We can't comprehend IT without experiencing IT,

But we can experience IT without comprehending IT—

For we are IT!

 

IT reveals everything;

IT explains nothing.

 

The interpretations

Of ITs revelations

Are our creations.

 

We need to recover or re-discover the experiential spirituality that was the crucial aspect of the early movement around Jesus and John the Baptist. Their religion was not a doctrinal religion but a mystical movement, wherein the direct experience of the Divine, and acting directly and dynamically from the Unitive Love experienced in that experience, was the essential element of faith. The Last Supper and the Ritual of Communion serve as a constant reminder of that Divine Union and Communion.

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Hi Arminius,

Thanks for your poem, which I enjoyed.  If I am understanding you correctly, I think where I differ from the stance you are taking is that, for me, if they are rightly taken up, both doctrine and experience are valid ways in to a transforming awareness of the Divine Mystery. In my view, both are also essential aspects of all religions (including Zen Buddhism).  Whichever way(s) in to that Mystery that we take, however, the only test that we are really 'getting it,' is the emergence of the fruit of a genuinely loving character (which includes justice and all of the other companion virtues).

All the Best,

Rishi

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Hi rishi:

 

Yes, of course, it is impossible to operate totally without doctrines. Even arguing against doctrine is a form of doctrine, and traditional Zen is, as you said, not entirely without instructions, teachings, and doctrines. They are minmized, though; the novice is encouraged to seek mainly by meditating and turning inward.

 

If the aim of doctrine is THE Divine Union and Communion, then I fully agree with almost any doctrine. (And the doctrines of the Trinity, Communion, and Baptism are such Unitive doctrines and sacraments) The end justifies the means. Most people require some form of doctrine. A fully enlightened being may be beyond doctrines, but fully realizes the need for doctrines.

 

I think it is unfortunate that so much of Christianity is (was) doctrinal only, devoid of experiential spirituality, with the experience of the Divine (a.k.a. Grace) attributed to the whim of a capricious, supernatural  God rather than being regarded as an innate but largely unaware state, of which everyone can become aware—if we so choose!

 

There is, however, a price to pay for the Divine Union: The price is the egocentric self! In order for us to get IT; IT has to get us! We have to give ourselves to IT in this Divine bargain. The egocentric self is the price for the Divine prize!

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Yes!  So expensive!   I sometimes wonder if the lack of having to pay this outrageous price is a big part of what makes conventional religion so boring for me. The great price, and how I am 'wooed' by Love into seeing the wisdom of paying it, is so beautiful for me. You're leading me into the mystical power of the cross, but don't get me started...  Thanks for the inspiration.

Rishi

 

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Thought I would throw this into the mix - "Costly discipleship sourced by grace." Think it is Bonhoffer.

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Charles, way back in the day (late 70s) I remember buying a copy of Bonhoffer's "Cost of DIscipleship."  Somewhere along the line it got passed on or lost before I ever read it.   He's someone whose name I hear occasionally by radicals of one kind or another. I'll have to find another copy.

 

Who was it that talked about "cheap grace" ?  I think it may have been him as well.

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yup - he called for a teaching and living out of costly discleship.  Sort of taking into account all the many things Jesus told people to leave or do without, etc .. . not an easy Christianity that allows you to just go to church, read and pray, but has tangible cost to it.  A lot more there though obviously.  Unfortunately I haven't read to much of him directly either, it has been quotes and commentaries.  Although really I don't think he actually wrote too much in the way of books.  A lot of his stuff came from letters he wrote while in a Nazi concentration camp.

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