A NEW SPIRITUAL VISION

Posted on: 02/25/2009 21:40

Yesterday I woke feeling a bit down.

February is a hard month in the Okanagan and in Lumby we sit with about 3 feet of snow compacted heavily all around us, covering the plants, rocks, dirt and water that we related to in the summer. I think most people feel down in February. This morning was further down. I had a shower and stepped onto the mat in front of a mirror. The I was, naked as the day I was born, staring at another person. Then it happened.

I have always had the thought that every person in the world is aware like me and yet I am the center of this particular movie. It is like we are all stars in our own movie, some of the overlapping, but I have found it intellectually challenging to imagine how this works. Indeed, it is the main reason I believe in an intelligent Creative Force that is personal to everyone - because we all have our own movie to deal with. How sweet is that?!

The experience in front of the mirror had this awareness, but I had a feeling I cannot describe. It was not a happy or sad experience. It was a "knowing" experience. I heard the words, "You are not alone; you live in God's world." in my head. I felt that somehow that image in the mirror was God and I was connected to It. I seemed to change slightly and morph, but not much. I knew that only ME and IT were real at that moment and I thought of the word "authentic" -something I had been struggling with.

I wish I could make this into one of Arminius's super visions but I can't. It was a moment of connection to another "Self" in the mirror and a message from my inner psyche for me to work with. Throughout the day I tried to do my usual psychological interpretation of it all, but nothing came. The only real thought that I came up with is that all of our psychological scientific stuff is likely closer to the understanding of "spirit" than anything. As we understand our psychological Selves, an the amazing dynamics that take place, we begin to understand SPIRIT. How does a spirit emerge? By becoming PERSONAL and AUTHENTIC. When the inside self is the same as the outside self, we emerge. When we bring with this the wisdom of our own development and knowledge, this is a spiritual quest. This is as far as I have come with it. When I read Brad's Blog (Exerpts from a Dark Night -below), I remembered this brief experience, and thought I should share it as an authentic outpouring of my journey.

The interesting thing is that "God" seemed very personal wearing my reflection, but the message was not delivered accompanied by any emotion of joy, elation, agape, etc. It was just given. All there was in this world was God and I. I could never be alone. It seem "he" fills my very pores and almost wears my face, although the body shifted slightly. Being a psychology major in my youth, I check myself over for psychosis, obsessive-compulsiveness, bipolar tendencies and neurosis and came up with only my usual neuroses. Not much had changed. I was ready to walk away from this short (?) experience pretty much unchanged. Or was I? Today I am feeling a bit "sick". This never happens to me. I feel like I am in a fog. Time, perhaps to do the work.

I wonder what it really means? Have you every felt this way? Help me out here folks...

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Comments

bygraceiam

Posted on: 02/26/2009 15:15

Hello lumbylad........God bless you.....

Awesome God we Serve......you have spoken to the Christ living inside of you...this is why Jesus Christ was sent to us ...so we may discover the kingdom of God inside of us and learn that we are God Beings...full of Light, Love, Wisdom, Knowledge and Power because of what He done for us ...it is when God speaks to us in the quiet of our minds and we hear Him that we know our lives are going to change...this in itself is such a mystical/supernatural experience...Praise the Lord...now that you are open to Christs voice/consiciousness you will start to see things in a different light

Yes it may be time to do the work...but it comes from God and He shows you how...I make God number one in my life and He does the rest...do we want to be changed from mortal to immortal having eternal life its just the beginning...now becoming the character of Christ is what makes us whole, free and out of the bondage of this world ....I am so happy for you my friend...you have heard Gods voice and the sickness may be the fear you have for the Lord God for He is So Cosmic, so Universal, so Awesome...

You are the bearer of the Light ....Gods Glory will shine upon you ...it was probably there all along waiting to emerge...Praise the Lord...I will pray for you lumbylad for Gods , Love, Guidence, Wisdom and Knowledge and from here on in you will also see the bible in a different light...remember God also speaks through His Word and the messages will be waiting for you to find them...seek and search out the Ascended Teacher Jesus Christ....and He will reveal His mysteries...for Him and the Father are one as You and I are also one...

You have indeed had Revelation and a Mystical Experience ..so many people in this world are searching for what you just discovered....I put Gods wondeful blessings upon your Life from here on and pray His wonderful angels will show you the way...protect you with all of The Fathers Power and show you that your journey will be exciting and rewarding ....I apply the Blood of Jesus over your physical and spiritual body to renew and as Gods says...He leadeth me beside still waters, He restoreth My Soul....you have come to the point in your life that you realize you are Free....heal lumbylads physcial body Lord God ....In Your Name I Pray Jesus...

Not all of our experiences are the same lumbylad ....Praise the Lord for you taking the step into a Brave New World ...where Gods Love and Purpose Guard Your Heart from now into Eternity.........

IJL: Your Sister in Christ Betty-Jean...

When Moses ask to see God ...He was not in the Wind or the Thunder but in our minds that are of Gods Essence...this is where He speaks to us ...

LumbyLad

Posted on: 02/26/2009 19:47

Wow Betty-Jean!

We'd think you had the mystical experience, not me. I am so glad that my little awareness can enliven your relationship with your God. I do accept your gift of interpretations as a possibility for me. I tend to view things through a different lens, but it likely ends up in the same place.

Jesus, for me, was a man from the start. Whether he was transformed and transfigured, I don't really know, but I do know that all is possible with a Creative Spirit. To walk like Christ is to see people as he saw them in his time, and would see them in my time. He was an awesome man. I have never felt the need for an Afterlife and I don't think it adds anything to my God. The Creator's gift is in front of my eyes and with the beauty, love and power of all that I see, every day. I think, had I looked a bit closer in the mirror, I might have seen an aura around my image -this was the slight shifting of the body perhaps. I have seen this aura before in pictures taken of me. For me this has always been my Spirit within. I have recently begin to call it my "God-chip", but I have always felt It within psychologically - a personal force within that I gain courage and compassion from. It is part of what I have always called my "authentic self". This Self often scares people, for some reason.

So yes, God be praised. Our God is an awesome God. I celebrate with a quieter curiosity than you do, my friend. I'm not much of a fan of having Jesus blood applied over my physical and spiritual body, but I understand your metaphor, given what you believe. So I thank you for your considered feedback and wish you continued Grace on your Journey,

Dave

Arminius

Posted on: 02/26/2009 21:38

Hi LumbyLad:

Mystical experience isn't always the ecstatic experience I make it out to be. Many people are shaken up by the experience, and some even get scared by the "otherwordliness" of it.

I think in mystical experience, when thinking is momentarily suspended, we experience reality as it really is. This can be scary, because most of the time we experience reality only as we think it is, not as it really is. Mystical experience is a real reality check, which sometimes comes as a shock, and sometimes is accompanied by ecstasy: the proverbial rapture.

LumbyLad

Posted on: 02/26/2009 23:52

One might say that mystical experience "should" open the person to that reality of who he/she is and therefore have an effect on being more authentic form the inside-out. This was the message I got, as it was something I have been thinking about.

PS. My apologies for turning my usual "Discussion topics" into Blogs. I think Blogs should be saved for long homilies, sermons or complex dialogues, not just thoughts.....

Arminius

Posted on: 02/27/2009 14:02

There you have it, LumbyLad: more material for your presentation on Becoming More Authentic From The Inside-Out.