Freundly-Giant
Hi everybody!
Posted on: 02/23/2010 10:58
So I have ten minutes before I have to go to school, but I'll try and break down some life testimony to you before I head out the door. So... where to start.
I had a close friend who's pretty tight with the Lord come home from Race care driving school. He asked me to go out for coffee with him, and excited for him to be home, I complied. What we talked about was interesting. He gave me the "christian homosexual" talk, and I was kind of bummed at first that he would bring that up, but then I realized; this guy LOVES me, and wouldn't be telling me this unless he wanted to further me because of it. I was still VERY skeptical about him converting me or whatever, but I agreed to meet with a woman from our church.
So this gal I met is a friggin' POWERHOUSE. She walks so close with God, it was hard to make eye contact with her and not get a little overwhelmed by the holy spirit. So we started talking. She brought up things in myself I didn't really want to hear. Fear of rejection. Need for acceptance of man. Unforgiveness. Soul ties with past... affairs. Anyways, we've come quite a ways into working through crap I have in my life. Everyday I'm growing a little more affirmed in my walk with God, and guess what? Last night I told my parents I forgive them for a lot of what they've done! If that sounds a little meek, just know that on my difficult conversations scale, it was higher up then the coming out to them.
But anyways, I'm now growing, not yet as far along as I'd like to be, but everyday getting closer.
And this is my second day of fasting, and FRICK am I hungry. :)
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Beloved
Posted on: 02/23/2010 11:02
Hey, hey, FG - it's great to see you here at Wondercafe - you have been missed!
Nothing but the very best thoughts and wishes as you continue on this path of life and seeking and searching to know both yourself and God more dearly and clearly.
Keep keeping us posted!
YouthWorker
Posted on: 02/23/2010 12:58
Good to see ya on here again! Now I no longer have to stalk your Facebook profile!
It's great to hear that things are going better for you -- you deserve it!
Elanorgold
Posted on: 02/23/2010 14:17
Was this woman at the church nice to you or was she trying to shake the gay out of you? She sounded a bit harsh.
I think it's always good to forgive, after all your parents are what they bare because of their life experiences and the forces that shaped them, including their own parents. So it isn't really their fault. They can choose to be kinder, and more accepting, but that takes learning, and if they aren't learning, they can't change. Knowing that will help you not to take their hurtful things so personally.
For your fast, you can drink "master cleanser"
1/4 cup lemon juice
1/4 cup maple syrup (I used honey)
1/2 tsp. cayenne pepper
4 cups water
It was really helpful when I fasted.
Witch
Posted on: 02/23/2010 14:37
People can love you, and still be completely and utterly wrong about what's good for you. Good intentions never prevented anyone from doing hreat harm. Indeed good intentions are often the cause of great harm.
"Hell is paved with good intentions"
Samuel Johnson
Be careful of "powerhouses".
They can convince you of all sorts of things that will make you want to abandon who you really are.
carolla
Posted on: 02/23/2010 22:23
Wise words witch.
Welcome back FreundlyGiant! Nice to see you're still around here ... I missed you. How's school this year?
Kinst
Posted on: 02/23/2010 23:16
TBH I'd be skeptical of creepy church people telling you what they think is right. Present company excluded of course.
Dcn. Jae
Posted on: 02/23/2010 23:24
"Hell is paved with good intentions"
Samuel Johnson
Be careful of "powerhouses".
They can convince you of all sorts of things that will make you want to abandon who you really are.
Yes, that's true enough.
pommum
Posted on: 02/24/2010 00:01
FG .... nice to see you back.
jon71
Posted on: 02/24/2010 05:06
Welcome back. I am so happy that things are going well. I hope you stick around and keep us updated on all that is happening.
LBmuskoka
Posted on: 02/24/2010 07:58
Nice to see you again Freundly!
Always, remember you are a powerhouse too.
That power is within you.
LB
When I dare to be powerful, to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid.
Audre Lorde
Birthstone
Posted on: 02/24/2010 08:17
Ditto to LB -
Glad to see you FG - you ARE a powerhouse, that has been shown through all your posting. I'm looking foward to hearing about this more.
Hilary
Posted on: 02/24/2010 11:36
Hi! Glad to hear that you're well and happy, FG!
naman
Posted on: 02/24/2010 12:13
Thanks for the update and I am happy that you have dropped in again.
Northwind
Posted on: 02/24/2010 12:25
Welcome back Freundly. It is good to see you. I enjoy your wisdom and outlook.
myst
Posted on: 02/24/2010 18:36
Good to see you Freundly ... been missing you.
Freundly-Giant
Posted on: 02/25/2010 11:08
Good to see you too. Every one of you!
And, Elanor, if she WERE just trying to shake it out of me, I'd have nothing to do with it. I've walked through that crap one too many times before.
And frick, that sounds interesting! I'm gonna have to try it. I have no idea what cayenne pepper is, but I'll find some.
School has been good. Busy. Being a high school kid involved in things outside of core classes and casual social circles isn't always the easiest, but it's really rewarding, so I do it anyways.
Overall, I'm trying not to worry or get caught up in any big circumstances, but rather just to ride it out and enjoy the way things are going. So, basically I'm good. Really, really good. :)