First Friday in Lent - I hate Easter

Four days into Lent and the exercise is raising more questions than it's answering.  My inability to perform a 'perfect' lent leaves me with a sinking feeling of failure and comprimise and yet each of these choices was made for good reason.  Perhaps the oddest insight is that my Protestant upbringing, which makes so much of God's forgiveness, has left me with a persistent feeling of guilt.  The choices that I made, to have 2% milk in my coffee instead of cream (although a perfect lent would have refrained from even that amount of dairy fat), my slip up on Ash Wednesday w