After a pretty good couple of weeks, today I just feel completely overwhelmed.  I did a bunch of things over the past two weeks to try to help myself and keep myself from isolating and now I feel incredibly guilty. I went out with a friend for dinner last weekend and I went for a walk with another friend of Friday.  I haven't been out with a friend outside of work or school in years.  I joined a learn to run for smokers group and had a great time training with them and now I feel like crap.

My mother's health is rapidly deteriorating again.  On Dec 29/07 she had emergency brain surgery for an agressive kind of brain cancer.  She recovered fantastically but was given 7-17 months to live.  It was 17 months in May.  I am grateful for the time that we were given with her but now her mental state is about what it was when she had her surgery.  I really don't think that she has much time left. 

First I haven't changed my username to better reflect my gender identity because I am not out with my son and he is often over my shoulder checking out what I am posting or reading.  If I were to change it, I would change it to someboi.

I was listening to the radio on the way home from work today and they had some focus on the family or some such woman going on and on about broken families.  Not single parent families but "broken" families with much emphasis.  She was saying how much broken families cost tax payers and a broken family is more likely to live in poverty. 

I'd call children's aid....