I have posted my story, prayer and message for September 22 as a blog.  In it I explore the place of lament in responding to loss.

My story, prayer and message for September 22, 2013.

Lament Begins: Jeremiah 8, 32, Lamentations

Story

I'm not sure you can have a favourite song of lament...but, can't think of the right word.

So, what are the songs that you sing to or listen to during times of lament?

What allows you to sit when you need to and accept your sadness?

What moves you through to the next stage of grief

Here is the wiki article on Lament : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lament

Those of you who were at the WonderPicnic on July 3 will have met Audrey; others may know her as well.

Her mother has had cancer, and is approaching the end of her life.  Audrey and her family would really appreciate your thoughts and prayers as they go through this trying time.

May God grant them grace, strength and courage for the difficult time now, and for the days and weeks ahead.  My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours, Audrey.  God bless.

So, in a moment of weakness I signed up for these stupid e-mails about grieving.  They are very hollow.  Here is today's e-mail:

I just had news from someone who is in my circle of acquaintance that her adult daughter has an inoperable cancerous tumor and won't survive.  They are moving onto chemo to make her more comfortable to give her more time with her children and husband and to prepare them for her passing.

It's such a horrifying blow for my friend.  She's on her own and I know this is going to change her forever.  She was in a hard place even before getting this news. 

What can I do??

After a pretty good couple of weeks, today I just feel completely overwhelmed.  I did a bunch of things over the past two weeks to try to help myself and keep myself from isolating and now I feel incredibly guilty. I went out with a friend for dinner last weekend and I went for a walk with another friend of Friday.  I haven't been out with a friend outside of work or school in years.  I joined a learn to run for smokers group and had a great time training with them and now I feel like crap.

I have said for sometime that I live in an insane household.  It is now documented.

I took my four pets for a check up today.  

My cat , Molly,  (she is the black cat in the picture of the bedroom I posted a couple years ago) is grouchy because she is constipated.  She also needs to lose weight so she got a diet cat food.

Hi All:

Sometime before Christmas I responded to a post made by Jennybeam who claimed that we had chased Serena away telling her that the claim was false and that Serena was dealing with a personal crisis.

I have been communicating with Serena on and off since then.

This evening I recieved another Wondermail from her and she has asked that I share some information with you.

The personal crisis involved a very sudden illness in her father which lead to a coma and then shortly after that to his death.