1. The life of the believer - is boring and uninteresting and has no pull for me

2. The life of the sinner/unbeliever - initially exciting but evenuatlly boring... and u have find the next new thing to get the high...

The problem is I still believe in God so I am unable to kill myself.

I hate life... There no point.

You are born and go school 20-25 years. The work for another 25-35.

Meanwhile you maybe get married and get some kids along the way.

By the time you get some money and no more work (if u one of the lucky ones)