The Beginning of the Search for True Gnosis/Salvation

Pondering my past as I sip on my morning coffee:. I remember as a young teen slowly waking up to the idea that the adult world was random & not "fair" or "rational." Most adults were motivated by fear, insecurity or just plain ignorance. Orwell's 1984 and Huxely's Brave New World shook me to my existential roots. My suspicions were confirmed. Yikes! This was the world I was entering. I had a feeling of being lied to. Science addressed the "how" but left out the "why!" School was boring! Churches were out of touch!