a mother's eternal guilt?

Hello Everyone.

Ok, so I'm a newbie at this whole blogging thing so please bare with me :)

The thoughts are so random and "there" in my head and the feelings dominate my soul--- that the only place for this to be understood is possibly in this kind of a forum.

I am a mother of three beautiful, happy, healthy vibrant girls (4, 3 and 1 year old) I have a wonderful (albeit-- LAZY) husband and pretty much everything that gives me absolutely NO reason to complain, and yet all I want to do is cry.