I suppose I need to write a new Blog. My feelings need space, remember?

Anyway. I do not care if anyone reads this, it'll just make me feel better writing it.

I have not been the same since the email my friend sent me. The truth is that I should have know, that one day something will happen, and I will have no way to make things better.

I know that my friend deserves to search for the happiness that has long eluded him. He deserves every bit of it.

Hello wondies,

I'd appreciate your advice and support. This is by no means the most serious problem I've seen on the forums, but it is currently taking up a lot of my attention.

I have to just let all this flow. if it doesn't make sense then its fine, I may be the only to truly understand it and like I said before wondercafe is the only place I can go to blog that no one knows me or can pass judgement on what I have to say. its just who I am and who I am is disappearing. I know my relationship isn't all that healthy, but it could be. its not physically abusive or anything like that but I am starting to feel like I am being somewhat controlled and somewhat lead in directions I don't know if I want to be in.