So to start off I'm going to say I've struggled with self harm, low self esteem, blah blah blah. All the common teenager stuff. I have recently discovered that working out relaxes me a lot, and I'm also trying to cut things like chips and pop out of my diet. Now I've been researching some healthy snacks, and some exercises from some very... extreme sites, and I'm starting to wonder; will I start out with healthy amounts of food and slowly slip into something more serious? I'm afraid that I'll slip into an eating disorder. Any thoughts on ways I can avoid this?

 So here's the thing ... Just after that fishing trip ... I went to the doctor's and he told me I have prostate cancer.  Its not early stage but on the other hand it is not late stage either.  Its right in the middle.  Just a little more than you'd want if you had your druthers.  So its all set.  I go into the hospital in the middle of December and have it taken out.